Strings of Life

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Rewind

We got another two COs at work today! Looks like my team is doing better everyday! Five done, fourty five more to go - I think Cyruss can start planning on how to ever-so dramatically pull the plug. For me, and I guess both Joyvn and Seah too, it's "pull then pull lo, we see how you die after that.." Ah well... we'll just do our best.

Went out with Poh for dinner - chatted what I would say a pretty fulfilling yet unfilfilling chat - got to know him better but at the same time, did not understand him better. Feel that he's hiding smth but well, guess he's not ready to share - complicated guy.

I walked home from Balestire (however you spell the name) after I was done sending him home. I enjoyed the walk. Alone. Quiet. Had time to myself at last. Watch the cars go by. Hear the wind sing once again. I didn't think about anything for once - the mind was at a state of "free". Surreal. Given our life styles, simply surreal.

When I got to Boon Keng, I wanted to skip a traffic light junction so ended up in the HDB flats. Got a little lost then realised I was walking towards von's house. Haha. I just walked - kinda like a rewinding tape to me - don't ask me why the example but ya, just came to me. So ya, walked past her house then carried on walking. Then suddenly, bumped into her. Haha. Not only is Singapore too small, we've got too little time to play around with also. Hehex. Permutate the minutes and the seconds and well, paths just cross. Interesting. Said hi, chatted a few sentences and walked on. *end of rewind and now, forward*

Slowly walked home after that. Chatted on the phone with Jiexin until Kovan. Took Approx. 1.5hrs to get home from Poh's house. Not bad. =)

Well.. feel like crashing now. Brain feels very heavy after the long walk.

Eternal memory engulfed by night,
Yet thy soul still stands to fight.
Truth be told and paths forebode,
Life's mysteries come afloat.
Know thy servant, know thy knight.
Know thy master, know thy slave.
Know thee, knowst not.
So blood pulse banging breaks thy walls
Of laughter and drowns
the fight - will thee
Consume me till surfiet?
"Enough, no more" great Shakespeare cries,
"Tis now not as sweet as before" thy Duke replies.
Lear's folly, Lucio's lust,
Macbeth's hate and Otthelo's wrath.
Come to it,
Come from it,
Come away from it...
Thy knowst not, soul
mind or body.
Thy knowst not,
Folly.

I doubt anybody will understand that. Well.. means a lot to me though. Been quite sometime since I wrote something like that. Roaw. Ok.. sleep... moody le.. =(

Kai :: 10:06 PM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

18 Years Old Boy

Today was a tiring day but I shaln't go into the details. Too tiring to do so. Let's just say that we showed the MD of Financial Insights that an 18 year old Singaporean has enough capacity to whip his bloody ass to the moon.

Anyway, I find myself getting more sensitive to the melodramatic elements of life. Perhaps I've been reading too much - everything seems to eh, fake to me. And ya, it makes me kinda cold and harsh I guess. But really, grow up? Hahax. Ok, I know I'm very childish myself but I guess that people need to think more and stop procrastinating over things la. Sabby's right in the sense that life ain't all about what you make it out to be ba. Ultimately, you make whatever it is in life work for you and not vice-versa. Hahax.

I'm thinking of doing philosophy in university. Wonder if I can get in... hahax... or well, will spelling affect my performance in the field? Hahax. Ok! Random! Lalala....

Oh! And I want some time off from the stupid whirlpool of the Singapore lifestyle. I want time to myself and well, time with my girlfriend! Hahax! I think I'm neglecting her and myself... hahax... and maybe us.. Ah! Ok! When's the next public holiday? Hahax. There seems to be an absence of it in 2007. Crap! Hahax. Ok, next thing to do instead of stone in the office - find time. Hahax.

Kai :: 10:04 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Blog

It's pretty interesting how you open up your blog and go "eh! I don't remember blogging this entry lei.." then realise duh, you did not! Hahax. But well, I don't mind la. But this doesn't mean any dodo can access my blog to blog horx. Hahax. Only ya.. one person I guess... =)

Anyway, work today was tiring as usual. We had one confirm order at last. At long last. But then again, it's ONE. Joyve said it's the process of breaking the shell.. I'd say yes, break the shell.. the shell of further misery.. now how are we supposed to scrap this projecct? Ah well... I'm just an employee... I do what they ask me too - it's quite nice this way I guess... carefree in that sense - army training I guess - say what, do what.

Point aside, I've always loved music and still do. Was listening to the radio on the way to work and yea, heard that different people have different likings towards the expression of love. I guess mine is through music. Hahax. And what more is performing the art together for a specific purpose... a purpose that means something. Hahax. =)

Ok... another grueling day awaits.. yawn.. better catch some sleep if not i'll be grumpy during work.. =)

Kai :: 12:15 AM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

"The reason why we often read nice-looking sentences in itialics, thinking that they're some famous individual's quote, is that they are made to look special. And if you think about it, this particular set of itialicised words are kind of lame."T. Y. Foong

ok.. i admit, i stole it from someone else's blog .. ok, and i think i shldnt be here either..

well.. it's either u're behaving weird, i'm thinking weird, we're both having moodswings, or we still have a wall between us.. rusted tins shld be kept closed, but somehow i just have this thing about opening them over and over again until, well, it's not quite as rusted shut as it shld be.. nvm.. i guess it's just me..

-me-

Kai :: 4:03 PM

Monday, January 15, 2007

Unburdened

Woke up early today. Paced the house several times before the brain started working. Almost wanted to turn to Worms again but went to the piano instead. Think I woke Grandma up with my playing but that's not the point. Guess nothing is. Random.

*time shift*

I was thinking on my way home what Shakespeare really meant when he wrote in King Lear "so that unburdened, we may crawl to death."

Unburdened. I doubt I'm at that state now.

I'm not confused. I'm clear.

I'm afraid.

I fear.

There are things that I'll never vocalize. Too proud to do so.

It's ironic that you understand yourself but still don't wish to correct those vices and faults.

Sturbbon.

Me.

*time shift*

It's getting late. Got to work tomorrow. Time to sleep. Mood swings again.

This vortex of thoughts - let them rest!

Kai :: 12:21 AM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Cold

I've taken a sudden liking to playing Worms on my phone. I guess boredom does have weird effects on human preferences.

It's been increasingly cold over the past few days. Rain, rain, rain and more rain. Although I'd say that the slightly lower temperature is generally well received on an individual basis, the constant rain really ain't pleasant. Everything seems so melencholic with the endless downpour. Rain rain, go away, come again another day?

Well, rain or not, I'm going to make sure I rest and play enough this weekend because the week ahead is going to be a busy one. Assuming that the network is up on Monday, work's going to start coming in like crazy. Hopefully can close a few deals with Phillipines and Malaysia. Singapore and Indonesia I guess still have time... those that will be interested in the seminar are probably rich enough to afford it anytime.

Anyway, Financial Insights really ought to do their homework before organizing such seminars. Who the hell would choose to hold a banking seminar in March when most banks will be busy tidying up for the closing up of the fiscal year. What's more, given the failure of the past year's seminar, what makes them think they can market the event any better this year with the same unreasonable pricing. Stupid Australians. I guess Seah was right to condemn them from the start. Think they can start giving out free tickets again. Maybe I'll get one ticket if I'm lucky - for trying to help them to get rid of their almost impossible to sell tickets.

Small cell's coming over to my house in a while. I better get to bed soon and dream about what the day ahead is going to be like.

Oh ya! I composed a song in my sleep last night. It shall be called Twinkle Medley. Will fine-tune it when I'm free. =)

Ok! Off to bed I go - off to melt into the coldness of night...

Kai :: 1:23 AM